Listening to: Cryoshell
Watching: Monogatari Series/Kill La Kill/BeyondTheBoundary
Playing: Senran Kagura Burst
So I found out that my family (myself included) might be moving in the near or far future. This time to Nevada. Entirely outside of the state I live and have lived in since birth. I know the job market where I live now is horrendous, and desperate times calls for desperate measures but it's still a real bummer you know? I've barely started living in my current house (3 years so far) and they're planning on moving again.
While moving may have it's benefits (where I live now is quite the dead zone), there's a ton of drawbacks that they're ignoring. Namely, my opinions don't matter. I'll have to transfer colleges again. First of all, transferring this much can't look good on a transcript. Second, it'll only add to my time in college since I'd have to retake certain nontransferable courses. My relatives and family friends already nag me to death about when I'm going to finish college. Well NOT ANYTIME SOON if we keep f*cking moving.
I'll have to make new friends too. Sure I love making new friends, but not at the cost of losing contact with my old ones. I'm already down a good 8 friends from the previous move, with facebook really being the only means of communication between us, and even then it's just non meaningful general remarks. I had just gotten used to life here, I had just gotten acquainted with new people, and haven't even had time to REALLY get to know them, and now I'm going to have to up and leave? I wish I could spend as much time with them as I did my high school friends. I just started relating to these people and I'm going to have to be an entire state away from them, not to mention even further from my friends in the last city I lived in. An entire state away.
One more thing, nothing really life changing or drastic but it's mostly sentimental.
I realized this in the last move but... I'll never have it anymore: A childhood home
I'll never be able to say that this was the house I grew up in. Even if I go revisit my old homes, it won't be my home anymore. Someone else will be making new memories there and I can't ever show my future lover, my children, my children's children, where I grew up. This depresses me greatly.